Sunday, October 19, 2014

Are all men pigs/dogs/cheaters?

Now before you men get all upset about my title, let me explain myself. Without going into detail, my dad was not in my life at all. My mom used to always tell me that all men are pigs and can not be trusted. I was young when she began telling me this, so at that time, I didn't know what she meant by that. I do now. My ex husband lied to me so much and did so many bad things to me, that I sometimes wonder. When you find out someone you love has lied to you and betrayed your trust...it completely shatters your world. You look at everything differently after that. Nothing is the same anymore.  But what is worse than that is when someone KNOWS what you have been through. And he KNOWS what other men have done to you in the past. And he swears to you that he will never do to you what the previous man in your life did to you. Yet you find out that not only was he doing the exact same thing, but that and much worse. It really shatters your trust for every man. I do know that I am done with men.  My concentration and attention all goes to my daughter. I do not need a man. I do not want a man. I am done with men and with marriage. ALL men cheat. ALL of them. 

Friday, October 17, 2014

About me

I consider myself to be a private person. I don't let too many people into my life, much less my private life. I don't like to talk about personal issues or things that are going on in my life. I prefer to keep my private life private. That's just how I am. But I will try to open up a bit more here, to give you a batter idea of who I am and what I believe.

So let me share a little about myself. I am a mom, blogger, Muslim, Tae Bo junkie, political junkie, and a HUGE college football fan. I love sports, playing the guitar, music, reading, drawing, and writing. I also love perfume, make up, and purses. Yeah, typical girlie girl stuff, I know. I am also Straight Edge. I don’t smoke, drink, or do drugs. I’ve never even tried an illegal drug. And I say that with pride. Drugs never had an allure for me. I saw too many people, both famous and not famous, get messed up on all that crap. I never wanted that in my life.

I have a tattoo on my upper left arm.  I have three piercings in one ear, four in another, my nose and my tongue. I had my eyebrow done. I pierced it myself. But it wasn’t healing properly. So I took it out. I will get it re-pierced soon.  I also have my ears stretched to 2 g. I plan to stretch them out bigger.

And that’s a little about me.  This is hard for me to share. But hopefully as I go on, I will share more of me. Maybe. Time will tell.

Until next time...

I'm back, and better than ever!

So here I am again. I have been gone for awhile. I had a lot going on personally since my last post. Those of you who know me personally know what I have been through in 2014.  To those of you who do not know me personally, let me play catch up and tell you some things that have happened recently...

I won't go into full detail or mention names here, but I have let go of two people in my life this year that I once loved. But I learned the hard way that neither one of them loved me. They used me and took advantage of me.  But we live and learn. These two people I let go of have taught me that I will never again be treated like less than I am, nor will I ever settle for less than I deserve. I love me and I deserve so much more than what either of them ever gave me. Which wasn’t much. We can only be used if we allow ourselves to be used. No more. It may take me a while to get there. But when I’m done, I'M DONE.  It is now time to move on with my life and be happy. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. That’s been my mantra for this year. It will also be my next tattoo. It’s my time to shine and be happy. My #1 priority in my life right now is my daughter.  Life is wonderful and I am happy!

Until next time...

To my old self...

It's 4:10 am, and I cannot sleep.  I hate a quiet house.  My mind races in a quiet house.  And that is never good. I have come to the ...